The Great Escape

Running away, forget yesterday. I'll make the great escape, yes i am escaping. But not from something harmful or stressing. Right here, right now i am trying to escape from laziness, love problems, individualistic thoughts and Illogical perspective which lead to an ENDLESS possible solution.

Yes, i had law exam yesterday and i'm on the 50% success rate. And i hope this works likes in Monster Hunter ( A game released by capcom on PS2,PSP,WII and PC), you can improve it by buying books of combos to increase the success rate.

But anyway. I'm really grateful to Allah SWT, because of him i feel more calmness than before. I'm worrying thing less than before, i almost can't sense any jealousy. Not even when they tried to make me jealous. I'm really grateful, He's the creator of everything, the one who knows everything just like turning his own hand upside down.

If this were a game, i probably had reached Max level. And it will be easy for me to beat the bosses that blocking the way. The way to reach my hope and dreams. I could see HD scores clapping hands around my head and it makes me dizzy somehow.

Anything concerns my love problem. I'm no longer cares about it all, anyway i realised that i can't force someone to love me. Just like the case before, if one of them were get hurt because of my action. Then i prefer not to love anyone :).

Just let everything works just like it is. What is important not the future, but the present. All this time i was so scared, because i kept thinking lots of things.
like, "i'll be a sore loser if i stay single, i have to find a girlfriend". or "She'll hate me if i reject her"
of "what i'm supposed to do if i were transferred to china to work in my dad's company".
Those kinds of thoughts were erased from my memory, put into a trashbin, permanently deleted. And once more i RE-Format my mind. To set focus on something that occurs now. not tomorrow.

Anyway, This is the new day for me, New day for you too.

Here is my own quote for the day

- Life is like a small warehouse that stores new thing everyday, and everytime you want to take something out of it you'll find something unexpected from it -

-RAFIUL-

Another love quotes

Love is not blind, it sees more not less;

But because it sees more it chooses to see less.

-Unknown-

Thing that you should read

Hey guys, i'm going to post a good short story.

Titled : Love and Time

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink,
so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land,
the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."


Another love proverb for you:

"Trouble is part of your life — if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough."

-Dinah Shore-

Catalyst

Catalyst. That is what i'm going to say, CATALYST.
Do you know what is catalyst?, Catalyst is a substance that is used to speed up / slow down a chemical reaction.

I know, i'm such a jerk. But now i realised that, not everything was wrong. Even now, how could i be so guilty over something?, however on the other side the person whom i reject never felt any regret to confess their feelings to me.

Iam so embarrased with myself. How could i let down myself, easily taken by the emotion that haunt me since then. Be positive, that what is they said to me. because of them, they catalyzed my life again. Everything was in a slow phase until what they said to me, speed up everything. Energize me yet, without making me feel so tired.

Yeap, so in short you shouldn't be scared over something that has not yet been proven.
beeeeeeeeep, that's all. Ok, let's step the problems over! just like the picture above.

Alright, enough of that. Now my goal is to score HD in Law and Accounting As well as Marketing. I don't care about english though.
Another thing is about my weight, i gain about 6-7 Kg in just 1 week, and i have to burn it down. So probably exercise is more than necessary, it's a MUST.

TRISTA, if you read this. we're going to have a jog in reservoir park soon. I'll tell you when, and you HAVE to be ready. hahaha..

Anyway, i'm updating my location now. I'm back in Kuching, Malaysia. This wednesday there will be a LAW EXAM, but i haven't study. crap!, but whatever. I'm going to take it all!!.

Thanks for the birthday wishes guys. I really appreciate it, i don't know when to celebrate i'm stressed out because of the schedule.

ok time to close the topic.

here's a good proverb :

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

-Jason Jordan-

Officially 18

I'm Officially 18, Let's be positive and ignores all the problem for now..

Let's live to the fullest, and thanks for the Birthday wishes..
Time for celebration is???..

I'll keep growing till the last of my breath. :)

Mistakes

so i thought everything is gonna be alright. As soon as i leave my hometown, but then things getting worse. I realized that, did i do the right thing?? or should i just stay away from them forever??.

Ok, to be honest. i'm in love, but with who??. Who is the person that i should love??, i felt like there is a gap in my heart. I tried my best yet, i get stuck. If i should choose, i prefer not to fall in love with any girl in this big world, but Allah decided the other way around.

I know i should appreciate the thing that HE gave to me. I really am grateful, but i just can't tell whether this is a good thing or a bad thing. I felt like i'm in a deep trouble. I need someone to share, yet i can't find the "ONE", the person that i can trust the most.

now in my mind i'm thinking, just give me a girlfriend already, i hate choosing, i hate making them all cry. I hate it, Just come in to me, and said i want to be yours. and i'll say, alright now we're couple :)

Alot of people said "love is a wonderful thing", but not in my case. not in my part. i'm always like this, in the end. It's always me, the one whom always suffer the pain. This is a song called WANITA YANG KU INGIN by ANIMA, song that really make my day gone worst but i love it because it's really show my true emotion now.

Well, rejection or rejecting or even rejected. is a normal thing for me anyway, i never put my hopes too high, until that incident. Now i'm extremely sensitive, now i'm demanding a hug, a holding hand, and a kiss.. i don't know why.. but it's just that.. i want it so bad.. anyone of you could give it to me?? i'll humbly accept it without any refusal.

Sometimes if i could i want to love, and be together with the person i loved too. Because all these years, it wasn't a love based relation. It's just an coincidence, or even because of parents interference. Should i be happy with all that??.. the answer is,yes.

But this time.. if i could just.. just..

It's Not Just About

Many people believe that, words is the strongest way to explain things and stuff. But in my opinion words is the weakest way to explain things.
Then how you explain a Clear blue sky?. Clear blue sky is a sky with a blue colour without a single thing that covers it.

is that True??. NO it is NOT, This is what i meant by a clear blue sky. Look below

This is a perfectly clear and blue sky

With words you can't express it correctly and precisely. but with pictures, everything seems so clear. There will be no doubt nor any argumentation.

There is a proverb saying that . "Pictures worth a thousands words" , that means with only just one picture you can explain A LOT of things by just looking at it.

this is one of the example.

Yes, a pictures that represents people from all over the world, with different racial backgrounds.

What can you conclude from this??, one of the answer will be : "there are so many race in this world". OR "We are not Alone in This world". However, the right answer based on this picture is "WE ARE ONE" .

Just like what i wrote above, Pictures worth a thousands words. One Pictures resulting in so many unpredictable answer.

You see, it's not just about Pictures. The thing is i'm just using this comparison to give you a clear view about what i'm going to say.

It's about human feelings and emotions. this one is dedicated to my PROBLEMATIC friends that unable to share because of some "unknown" reason. hope this will open her/his eyes over the problem that they have.

Thanks to Vladimir/DeviantArt.com (Pict for Illustration).

Sometimes there are things that cant be said. Just like the picture above, what can you see from the picture??, Yes "it is a girl sitting beside a window, looking out and thinking what happens on the outside world".

With words you could lie. But not with your feelings and emotions, words is a something that "TELLS and COMMANDS" you to listen and respond, and even sometimes you can even lie by using just a simple words like "I Fall in love" or "I just broke up".

But not with feelings and emotions, have you ever tried to lie to what you actually feels over something. or have you ever tried to lie to your own emotions. I bet all of you have tried, and yet Unsuccessful, and ended up with crying or running away from reality.

I found a very rare article about humans emotions and feelings. And thanks to all of my friends whom all acting really EMO, and then writing stuff about it. I find some Interesting words that i could explain them all. All day long if i have to.

Here's the List.
1. Defensive Mechanism
2. Pandora Box
3. Unhacked Algorithm in my Heart
4. Innocence within my mind
5. Unshareable Thinking

I won't put it all, it might reach 200+ if i keep going.

Basically, The Main idea is the Same.
it is the "Incapability of Sharing"
In Shorts, These Words Represents PAIN WITHIN THEIR HEARTS
or
PAIN THAT RESIDES WITHIN THEIR HEARTS

in Shorts. These people "AcT" strong by trying to cover it all, trying to be their own PAINKILLER. but in the end, PAINKILLER is just a TEMPORARY thing, a very volatile stuff. What is best is the "TREATMENT that APPLIED" to the victims.

Sometimes pain caused by misunderstanding, sometimes by the LOVED ones, or Even Friends
Or Worst. FAMILY,
We have our own reason to be in PAIN, but not for long.

have you ever thought of "WHAT IS THE FUNCTION OF PAIN"
Pain is a sign or warning from the body that tell us, that the part have to be treated immediately, Efficiently, and Correctly.

If it was an external injury, it could be healed by applying bandage and etc. and now , medical science is very advanced you could even transplant organs and stuff.

But what i'm talking about is the Pain Inside You Heart.

We are humans, live based on what we saw, what we thought, what we feels towards the life itself.
We aren't superhero nor an Angel whom feels no pain. and we're not a psycho that have only one purpose in life. We are human in general. Live Happily ever after. just like in the Fairy tales.

sometimes we cry, sometimes we smile, and sometimes we mad. But what makes life beautiful isn't the emotions nor feelings, but the "Ability to Share over something to somebody".

Pain is the same as happiness, do you ever feel that i shouldn't share my happiness with everybody?, i bet no one ever feel that way.
It is the same as pain actually. but because our way of thinking over problems. We better Fuck off from it, and start thinking that we are a jerk, sucker, loser and etc.

Happiness and Pain is meant to be shared. But Not TO EVERYBODY, share them with the one you trusted the most. Happiness you could share it with everbody but not with PAIN. it's strange yet different.

Pain sharing will result in , very harsh emotion will be expressed out bluntly, crying, swearing and even hitting an object or even subject will occur. that's why make sure the one you're going to share is somebody that knew you very well.

Do you know why Emotions and feelings exist in the human hearts?.. this is because god want you to know, that you're not alone, you have something to fulfill, you have something to expressed out. Imagine a world without feelings and emotion. there will be no laughter and cries. there will be no smile and madness.

I know my information isn't reliable enough. to Convince you about sharing stuff. but still, 2 heads and hearts is better than 1. am i right??..

Back to where i belong

Jeng Jeng Jeng!! (stupid BGM), hooooooraaay!!.. holidays.. i'm in Indonesia, to be precise.. In pontianak.. Located exactly on 0 (zero) degree of equatorial lines.., u don't believe me.. go check world map.. that have the those line thingy..

anyway this is the pict of Tugu Khatulistiwa
(in english version its "equatorial monument" (my version)

Today we, Indonesian having a President election, but i didn't go for the election.. i'm a busy man.. LOL.. (just kidding).. just like what i predict.. Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono.. or well known as (SBY).. is leading.. with a huge gap.. , i hope Indonesia will be alot better than before..

Pontianak, a town which grown to a city.. where all of my memories stored within.. i was born in a the hospital using a caesar method.. the name of the hospital is "Harapan Anda" means.. "your hope", and fortunately.. the "Hope" is working.. i'm normal, i'm tall, i'm just like other people.. and of course handsome <<( i'm being so sarcastic nowadays lol).. Even Pontianak has it's own song.. the song is like this

hey, sampan laju, sampan laju dari hilir sampe ke hulu..
sungai kapuas, dari dolok sungguh panjang membelah kote,
hey, tak disangke, tak disangke dolok hutan menjadi kote,
ramai penduduknye, pontianak name kotenye,
sungai kapuas punye cerite, bile kite minum aeknye,
meskipun pergi jauh kemane, sungguh susah nak melupakanye,
hey, kapuas.. hey kapuas..

basically, this song was created because of Pontianak's unique feature.. which is "kapuas" river..
the widest river in the world.. if i'm not mistaken, well whatever, this is the river which support the lifespan of the whole Province of west kalimantan.. now i'll provide you with the translation of the song.. it might sounds funny but.. i think u'll have some idea about it..

hey, a fast boat, a fast boat, from downstream to upstream
Kapuas river, lenghty across the city since then
hey, who knows, who knows, from a jungle turn to a city
Full of people, Pontianak is the name of the city
River Kapuas has it's own story, if we drink it's water
eventhough we went far away, it's hard to forget it
hey, kapuas.. hey kapuas..

That what its means.. in short.. this song explain two things.. the city and the river..
the city part.. explain that.. first of all Pontianak is completely a jungle.. until a Sultan.. named Abdurachman came and change it to a city.. now it's crowded and full of smiles of the people.. , and the river part tells u that.. if u drink the kapuas water.. no matter how long, and no matter how far you go.. you will still remember Pontianak.. it's so short but give a very meaningful point to us.. especially when u understand pontianak language.. just like me..

this is the view of kapuas river at night.. classic yet pretty.. doesn't it??

Anyway, I'm here for about 1 month before i'm going back to swinburne again.. cheh.. suxs..
Pontianak.. People from malaysia wonder why the city is called pontianak.. This is why.. i'll explain the story.. this story i heard from one of my friend who lives as the "Keeper" of sultan abdurachman residence.. or i should say it a palace..

Long time ago, when Sultan abdurachman came to Pontianak.. it was completely jungle.. as it's slowly turn to a small camp >> to a hamlet >> to a village.. the people was annoyed by a group of Female ghost.. known as Pontianak for Malaysian, or Kuntilanak for us Indonesian.. this female ghosts.. always stole small kids and newborn babies.. and "ATE" them.. and this Sultan was really mad at them.. and planning to fight back.. but as a human.. we don't know what ghosts can do..

so Sultan abdurachman command the villagers to make a couple of wooden cannons, filled with gunpowder.. and for 4 days and 3 nights they keep shooting the cannon 24 hours.. to repell this ghosts.., and its successful.. and up until now this tradition still preserved.. every fasting month.. we people of pontianak.. especially those who are live near the river.. or very close to the river will most likely to create a cannon.. and fire them for the whole night.. until sunrise.. everyday for a month.. and people also make a competition out of it.. the cannon that could produce a good, loud, but yet fierce sounds is the winner.. i dunno how they judge it.. but it's nice..

Talking about ghosts, Pontianak had some scary places that you have to avoid at all when driving at night.. .. first.. is called "Padang Dua belas" or "twelveth field", avoid driving through it at night.. or u'll pee on ur pants while driving or u'll faint and get into accident.. another place is called "Air Hitam", or the "DARK WATER", please avoid it when u drive it at night.. during the day it's a good place.. but at night.. it'll be the ghosts HEADQUARTERS.. u won't slip out of it "ALIVE".. that's what people said about those places.. and many more to reveal.. but now the topic is holiday shit!!..

okay, so now.. i'll tell you about my holidays... i went back to indonesia on 5th July 2009, using SJS bus that depart at 1 PM in the afternoon, from kuching.. i reach Pontianak at 9.30 PM at night, this is considered long cus the bus stops a few times.. which annoys me a lot.. when i arrive here.. my swinburne friend.. "Randy" an Degree in engineering student pick us up.. btw, i went back with other 2 swinburnian.. "Siska" and "Dito".. so we went to eat. at night... in pontianak there's alot of place to eat at night.. compare to kuching.. cheh.. a dead city.. lol..

ah,, in the morning.. i went out with my friends.. from morning till night.. and happens just like that.. time flow very fast.. i wonder why.. compare when i was in lecture or tutor time is like flowing so slowly.. damn it!!.. haha

the day after that i went with my friends from swinburne.. Randy,Siska,Dito, efsi (Randy's GF not swinburnian) and me went to watch GDD.. (GARUDA DI DADAKU), a movie which inspirational to all soccer lovers in indonesia.. a kid which had a big dream to be a national player.. quite good but the ending is like HANGING.. argh. waste the movie somehow..

and today.. Jeng jeng jeng (Stupid BGM again) .. at night from 7.30 PM i went out with my friend to Pondok Samudra >> or "Ocean Lodge" it's not near a beach it's just a name okay.. don't misunderstand.. to hang out.. chit chat till we LMAO.. << laugh my ass off.. (if u dunno what it stands for).. and we eat in usual place.. The LAPANGAN TEMBAK!!.. lol.. i won't explain it to you.. cus it'll be too long.. ok.. enough for today..

continue tomorrow.. see you..

to be continued in SEASON 2 by Raffi.. <<<< what a lame ending.. cheh!!

Spoiled Economic Class

Sorry my picture wasn't in order but who cares right as long the picture are there.. lol..
ok so this is the picture in the spoiled economic class... i mean it's not spoiled.. only for that day it's spoiled.. everyone is chit chatting and stuff.... we do some crazy stuff back there..

and the lecturer are fine with it so.. go with the flow baybeeh... hahaha..

xin yi kajiao Ms. Lisa..

stupid xin yi.. can't write dismissed.. see clearly what she write >> "dimissed" <<

Spoiled Economic Class

Ninja Malcolm.. Sounds wrong

The Lone handsome Wolf Danny

Yvonne Bullying malcolm... so badd..

Tan wee, Yew yee, Euphemia, Mark, Devy (with the widest smile), Willis act cool , Suk Yee and jayson, behind i dunno whom.. not that clear..

Barry is back in Kuching

Barry Song, One of my classmate during secondary school in Lodge International School is back to kuching because he had a holiday for a week.. he went to Sunway in KL.. he said that place is super lousy.. however he said got alot of clubbing spot there..

Ah, clubbing i hate that activity.. so boring. fucking loud half assed songs, i dunno why the people are enjoying themselves there... argh.. what the heck...

we watch movie, the "MALL COP" freaking hillarious.. i love it to the max. stupid albert hahaha... here is some pictures of him and Rivaldi and of course handsome me.. (so perasan me. lol), we having dinner in Manhattan Fish Market (sounds funny "FISH MARKET" but in reality we're IN A MALL" hahaha)..

ooopssss, i forget to take the picture of this until we eat it halfway

The Perfect Boyfriend for any girlfriend - ME lolxx

Barry : eh tell me "how to steal a bra in the girl hostel?"
Rivaldi: "simple and easy, you go climb la.. tap the CCTV and start stealing loh, stupid la u"

What is this huh... a mushroom sumthing.. cost me 10rm ++ but it's worth it..

This is him BARRY SONG!!.. The handsome guy.. wahahhahahaa.......

It's been a while....

There is so much to talk about.. i'm a college student now.. and this is the first time after 5 months i think.. that i update my blog again.. anyway.. i'm getting more interested in what people call as.. "MACRO" pictures.
Well.. it's not as simple as that.. perfect composure and Bright environment are required to take a couple of good shot..
there's some MACRO pictures below using N73 3,2 megapixel camera. don't expect any goodness from this picture, however i'm quite proud of it.

The location is at the LAKE PARK, in KUCHING, if you guys know where is the PANGGUNG UDARA that's the place..









Now Now.. Let's talk about my college life.
As far as it goes, my college life is super busy. Assignment after assignment comes in and out. bleh.. i'm tired of that. Most of the subject i learn it already... it's like easy, but then when it comes to a new subject like "Innovation and Change". Where u are required to do some critical and creative thinking it's quite annoying. To be honest with you guys, i'm more to a logic person. i'm thinking using logic and brain. What is possible and what is not, i never think of something really outside the box.
Oh,yea and one more thing. everyone in class most of their names are using chinese.. it's really irritating.. "NO OFFENCE" to one of you whom read this post. but then, i don't know how, but i seem to remember each of their name. eventhough sometimes i might gone wrong with the pronounciation.

Anyway. you guys believe it or not that i had a "HUSBAND" hahaha. her name is Xin Yi. very SexC husband.. whatever. Oh yea, And Happy Birthday to Xin Yi. hahaha.. Hopefully she'll becoming more sexcier than before.. lol.

Oh.. for your information, my college is at Swinburne University of Technology in Sarawak,Kuching. pay me a visit ok??.. i'm staying in the hostel so easy to find me..

i'm hoping that i could update this blog anytime soon.

One Big Stupid Giant

One Big Stupid Giant.. is me..
Well, basically i said that cos.. *hmpfh* you'll understand if you read my post below.. i mean last post.. *that's an IF* cuz unless you understand indonesian language.. or you wouldn't be able to understand every single thing that i wrote on that thing..

I gotta be strong.. I know it might be hard for me. but, everything has it's own time..
So, yeaps i completely begin to giggle and smile cuz of what i done.. i'm crying cuz i miss a girl??.. oh shit.. c'mon *but i'm sure i'll do that again in another 10 days maybe*..

My back hurts a lot!.. and i feel i want to cry everytime i want to get up from sitting position to stand up position and vice versa., It occured bcos of Allen Iverson The Fastest Player in NBA.. hmm i blame him!!, because of his Crossover.. i mean, it happens when i learn how to do AI (Abbreviation for Allen Iverson) crossover..

but yeah now it's not that painfull anymore.. ytd.. i didn't sleep!!.. i stayed up the whole night.. Saturday night!!!.. well, usually i went to sleep.. but this time i didn't!!.. i'm darn stupid.. i'm waiting for a my "SPECIAL GIRL" to reply my Wall in Facebook.. so i stayed.. but then i felt bored, and took my jacket from wardrobe, then walk outside.. i'm not alone.. i'm with my friends, but in the end only 2 of us left.. the rest are sleepy and went back home..

phew.. We're patrolling around our housing complexs.. (i don't know how to write complexs so i'm usng complex) anyway.. i felt a bit scary too, not bcus of "CHANCE" that a robber might showed up infront of me.. i'm big and i'm strong i can take him down in less than 20 secs.. what i'm scared off if!! something which are not "HUMAN" showed off in front of me and start laughing.. phew.. i'm scared if i imagining it..

but whatever.. i'm going to focused 100% on basketball.. i hope i won't be bothered by any girls again.. i'm tired of getting hurt by girls again.. I'm sick of it.. i'm just hoping too much.. but in the end.. i'm always be the one who losed out.. I wonder how i can escape from all of this things..
well i'm taking it easy.. i know who am i.. and i know my limit..

Some girls out there might love me really deep.. it's just that they never show it to me.. but if they did.. i couldn't notice it cuz i'm not that senstive towards girls feeling.. but whatever.. basketball really pushing me 100% to the max.. i really want to avoid any relationship.. yeah, i hope i can.. well if i can't then.. i don't know..

but whatever i do.. it's because i always trying to be nice to you..

Dan Ternyata

kenapa harus ada harapan??, kenapa harus ada cinta??, dan kenapa harus ada dia.
kenapa aku berfikir bahwa aku masih punya harapan.. Harapan agar dia bisa menyukaiku??..

Aku sakit.. Aku tak tidur semalaman. menunggu balasan. tapi semua sia2.. aku begitu bodohnya menunggu layaknya seorang pujangga paling hebat didunia.
Tapi akhirnya dikecewakan.

Dan Ternyata.. Aku memang terlalu mencintainya. tak bisa hidup tanpa dia. yang tak bisa tenang tanpa memandang senyumannya. Mungkin aku juga terlalu bodoh, mengharapkan cinta yang ga bisa tercapai.. Harusnya aku sadar. Dari dulu. Dengan wajah bodoh ini harusnya aku bisa berkaca, menatap perihnya semua. Harusnya aku cari yang biasa. Harusnya aku ga jatuh cinta dengan dia.. Tapi semua sudah terjadi. Kini aku terperangkap dalam jerat mimpiku sendiri.

Menangis dalam sepi, Tersenyum dalam luka. Ya Allah, Jika aku boleh meminta.. hanya satu pintaku.. Jagalah dia, Dia Jauh Dariku, Aku Tak lagi bisa mengawasinya, Menjaganya dan memanjakannya lagi. Ya Allah Hilangkan lah Kerinduanku padanya.

Bila Aku Harus Jujur.. Aku Sangat Menderita. Hidup Tanpa Dirinya. Setiap 9 hari sekali. aku tak dapat menahan air mataku untuknya.. Dia seseorang yang aku ga bisa hidup tanpa keberadaanya.. Cintaku padanya telah terlalu besar. sebagaimana Adam dan Hawa..

Hawa Tercipta Dari Tulang Rusuk Adam..
Bukan Dari Kepalanya Untuk Dijadikan Atasan..
Bukan Dari Kakinya Untuk Dijadikan Bawahan..
Melainkan Dari Sisinya Untuk Dijadikan Teman Hidupnya..
Dekat Pada Lengan Untuk Dilindunginya..
Dan Dekat Di Hati Untuk Dicintainya..

Updates..

Hmmm... It's been a while.. since i update my blog..

Happy New Year For Everyone!!!

Huarrrhmmm... i'm so soo sooo bored in here.. Pontianak is not a best place to relief your boredomness.. lolz..
hmm anyway.. i'm trying to make my self busy.. well, i did part time job.. but still bored. i hate the manager.. damn bossy.. so i quit the job..

Believe it or not.. I'm getting fatter and fatter.. i can't control my diet nowadays.. starting today i'm going to lose someweight.. my breath getting heavier cos of this.. and jeezz cus of that.. my stamina drops too.. Indonesian food are too tempting.. i couldn't resist hahaxx...

Sometimes, I thought about my High School memories.. wheew.. it makes me sad somehow.. but most of the time i'm always happy..

Yeah.. i gotta fix lots of my problems.. I'm getting my OFFICIAL DRIVING LICENSE hehe.. cuz last time i faked it.. and then Problems with some stupid unknown stranger.. Problems with my Car battery gotta refill the Acidic Liquid..
Hmmm Problems with my Lappy and PC... Problem that involve my friends.. hmm should i mention one by one???.. naah.. i got lots of problems to solve hehehe..

Anyway.. For the record. I might continue my study in Kuching again (Damn It!!!)... IF.. i can't get into Singapore Poly.. which i always dream to enter... hufff... hahah :P

And also i'm happy my wounds are recovered already.. so you could see my handsome face again Hohoho...

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however you have to become the member of this site to enable some features that only member can access.. Don't worry i'm one of the STAFF there (hohoh proud!! lolz) just PM me in raffi_lock@hotmail.com i'll help you guys in downloading and stuffs..

I'll online everyday in that site.. soo yup.. as an extra info.. it's not only contain Anime and Manga.. it's also contain NEWEST English Songs.. and NEWEST indoensian song (cos of my efforts lolz).. however i still have to upload more songs in Indonesian category.. But Anyway.. you can request the song in the site.. The Other staff and me will try to provide you with the service...

http://www.manga4otaku.com/ don't forget it.. hmm..

4 Am

Jam 4 Pagi.. 4 AM

Whew!!,, I can't sleep.. i can heard those people in mosque near my house is reading al-quran. sounds nice too.

hmm, Ive got nothing to say btw, cos i've wrote everything in indonesian language.. in my Indonesian blog http://www.raffi-indo.blogspot.com/

only indonesian could understand :P

haha.. anyway.. in short. right now i'm in turmoil state.. is turmoil a correct word to describe it.. i don't know.. but what i felt right now is completely annoying me..

ok.. it felt like.. when you did something which is mean to somebody and you just realised it.. Ohh yea yea. the word is "guilty" hmm "regret".. aahh.. whatever..

Oi Katrina if you read this blog.. don't forget to link me!!... grrr,,, you told me 2 days ago that you'll link me!!.... hahaha.. kidding..

More And More..

More and More.. Lagi dan Lagi in indonesian.. Hahaha..

Today was unbeliveable, crazy stuff happens, but that doesn't mean that i'm happy. I'm pissed like shit!!, today completely piss me OFF!!. Why in the hell.. i'm in bad luck today.

once more i got wounded.. not bcos of accident.. but other stuff.. well it's a little cut.. hmm but it's not to small.. can't explain it haha..

first of all, it begins since early morning. i fell from my bed cos i had a nightmare. then when i want to take a bath. i slipped on that fucking wet floor. i bang my head to the wall cos of it. Then!! this stuff starting to becoming more and more violent. wkwk. on the afternoon i was trying to fix my mom's car.. it won't start so i'm planning to use a jumper to ignite the car. not that "IGNITE" but ignite to start the engine.

So, there are no jumper in my house.. those crocodile clip to jump the electrical current i meant. so no choice, then i move my dad's accu(car battery) to my mom's car. my hand was wet cos i accidentally drop the car's oil. Fortunately i'm don't lift it high enough. you know what happen next. i lose the grip then the battery fell. hit my leg. I scream like "ARGHH!!" louder than Tom when he got stabbed with fork by jerry.. After That!!, fuckin crazy keep happening..

Once i moved that battery, i ask my mom to ignite the car.. but then she do it too fast.. i wasn't ready. as a result i got shocked cos of the electricity produced by the battery. phew. lucky i didn't faint. but my pointing finger got burned.. it's ok now, but the heat.. i still feel it till now.

on the afternoon, i left my wallet when i was buying things in the grocery. on the evening a dog chase me when i was jogging fuck fuck fuck!! why in the hell those stuff happening..

fortunately now nothings happen.. but i hope tomorrow will be my lucky day.. i don't want to suffer again!!.. Well,, this stuff might happen bcos you might hate me.. or you don't like me.. well i'm sorry for what i've done.. hahaha.. well that is only one of the factor.. i don't blame you for all this.. hahaha..

well just hope tomorrow will be lot better

The Refresher

I'm in No mood for writing but,.. thanks to "IT". it does change my mood, what a refresher.. haha.. curious??..

The Reason was, I bought a new guitar , haha.. it's been 3 days since it become one of the member in my house aside from my E-guitar and Keyboard.

Yamaha Classic, FG-325. i bought it for Rp.250k about Rm80.
Cheap, i know you're all going to say that.. but don't get it wrong suckers.. haha,, this is my best guitar ever..

Since i love to sing and guitaring. this sure change my mood. thanks to it too, now i can start composing again.. until recently. there's only 2 songs that i could compose. it takes time of course..

This dude always makes me happy. when i'm sad, when i'm down. those melodies and sounds always come out from that string. when i play it. i think we both become one.. fusion..
this thing always and always be a part in my life..

I want to thank it. for helping me to get through everything.. especially during the day when i broke up. cih.. i don't want to remember it again..

anyway.. tips from me.. if you want your guitar to produce a louder sound.. put a black pepper in it. the seed one.. not the powder.. cos it's hot, it'll produce a louder sound.. if you put the powdered one.. ckckck.. i can't imagine.. how smelly and ah.. can't imagine.. wkkwwk.. i tried it and it works!!!... hahaha.. another method is!.. when you dry-ing your guitar after you clean it.. just get it on a sunbathing.. i'm sure it'll works.. i never tried it.. but my friend does.. so hahah.. try it if you wanna know the outcome!!..

A Better Life..

Sighz. broke up, just like what i told in the last post.. Now i sounds like a fuckin' playboy. keep breaking up with girls..

In fact. I'm not the one whom asking for this thing.. well it's not my fault too why they fell in love with me. i've been trying all the time to be a good boyfried to them. wkwk.. well well.. that's past. this breaking thingy doesn't have a connection with dissapointment or anything else. it's about cultural-tradition issue.. i've no other choice.
well.. if you're indonesian. my feeling is like the song Yovie & Nuno - Sempat Memiliki .

sighs, 3 more months to go before college starts. but it doesn't matter. i've to enjoy by then. wkwkw..

2009, Whew. I hope this year will be great, my targets for 2009 will be tough but i know i can do it.
Be the top student in college, Be the Ace in college basketball club, work during holiday.
and also. find a GF wkwkwk.. haha.. that's for fun only.. External motivator to make me want to study harder. Lose some weight hahaha!!.. i'm getting fatter in Pontianak. too much temptation. Extremely delicious food.. *drool* lolz

I won't worry. i know there are lots of things that could make me fail. but i won't give up. heh..
I'm Raffi.. who doesnt know me??.. lolz. XP

Oh yeah.. now i'm becoming more and more interested in basketball esp streetball. and Photography.. whew.. i'm learning how to do some impossible tricks. (that is what they say ,actually it is possible.. it's just that those tricks are in the EXPERT level). and yeah.. i love to take some Macro pictures.. and landscapes too.. haha.. i'm not too good in taking those scenery but yeah.. i love it..

2009.. I hope i'll enjoy a better life.. bye bye high School.. bye bye teachers.. wkwkwk.. (cos i'll never call them teachers again.. it'll be lecturers).. heh.. whatever..

This is the scenery that i love the most.. In Jungkat Beach.. well i'm still a noob in this picture thingy. well,i'm sorry if the pict doesn't look too good..