Berikan Kesabaran

Aku benci kalo permintaan aku ga dikasih..
satu kali aku ngomong artinya aku meminta dengan tulus..
dua kali aku ngomong artinya aku minta dengan sangat..
ketiga kali aku ngomong artinya.. aku terpaksa.. karna itu membuat aku bahagia..
keempat kali aku ngomong artinya.. dapat atau aku akan berhenti..

Dan hari ini 5 kali aku meminta... yang artinya.. that's it.. ga akan pernah minta lagi

aku ga suka minta minta sama siapa saja... sama papa, sama mama
semua aku lakuin sendiri selama aku mampu..

Dan hari ini 1 1 nya orang yang pernah aku minta sampe 5 kali cuma kamu..
Tapi ngga juga...
sebegitu ga berharganya aku..
ingat semua manusia punya harga diri... Jika kamu beri aku alasan.. it's fine..
tapi kamu hanya.. yah yeh yah yeh.. apaan... ga jelas..

Terima kasih.. Cukup aku meminta...
Biarkan aku diam disini... Dan bilang.. Carilah seseorang yang lebih bisa memaksa .. untuk mengendalikan kamu.. membimbing kamu.. bukan aku.. yang sedikit sedikit ngambek..

Kemarin.. apakah keputusan aku salah??..
Kalau memang salah... Aku minta hari ini... kembalikan jalan aku ke jalan yang benar..
biarkan aku sendiri..

Ya Allah, Jika memang ini yang terbaik.. aku serahkan padamu..

The Awakened beast

Hello guys, I'm back on the blog once again

You know i change some of my layout just to fix or roughly said "adjusting" this blog.
To match with the title and the content of this blog. And also in the near future, i'll post lots and lots of interesting stories and hopefully it'll attract more readers to my blog.

Thanks for Aymimo , Ninnas , And Imo for following my blog. Thankyou very much.

I realised, for the past 3 months i am posting such a normal or i should say "useless" post. which is not really good. And after i checked the posts i realised that the only inspiring posts were at the beginning of this blog. I mean if you check in the archive, it is on the early post.

The Awakened Beast

Why in the hell i gave such a name on the title post??. If you wondering about this title then i'll tell you.

I am having an exam right now , and i'm in a such a stressful mood that if you dare to touch my body even once. I could explode..
(Warning : this is just a joke, nothing to be serious about)

The Awakened Beast.
I realized for the past 2 months i have been playing around, having stupid romance stuff, day dreaming all day long, and i did nothing for my own good.

and then i remember about the video, it's about my dad. He was invited to one of the famous talk show in one of the TV station. The program is called "Kick Andy", Yes, maybe some of you knew that, and some of you don't so there it is.

So i watched him , on YouTube and download it. Well, to be honest i didn't watch it seriously at the beginning. But then, i was bored , stressed, annoyed, and tired . So i took an initiative to watch it, as a stress reliever.

I said to myself, let's watch this thing seriously. And EXACTLY at the first 5 minutes, i realized that i am crying. Not because of broken heart , or any silly matters. But because of his sacrifice, his determination, his story, Facing the harsh world alone without complaining about the world itself.

He's just a officeboy at the beginning, well officeboy it's still a good phrase. but he's not an officeboy, it's more like a servant.

He came to Surabaya , in 1981. With only graduating from junior high school. He has the will to move forward, he did lots of things. And i can't believe he ate the same food, called "KOLAK" for 4 years, everynight. His career start to climb after he's hired as the administration staff, and then promoted to Human resources, and finally he's at the marketing department.

Believe it or not, he's the one who made JAWA POST became as big as now. He's marketing ideas , his creative thinking, increases the sales by 2.2 times , or 220% . From 9000 exemplars to 22000 exemplars. And then he's sent to Pontianak, to help the Pontianak post or "AKCAYA" that is what it is called 20 years ago.

And now He's the head. The servant has become the master. The caterpillars has become a butterfly, a chick has become the eagle. Soaring at the sky, watching and hunt the prey.

I can't stop crying after i watched that 10 minutes in duration video. I am so ashamed of myself, here i am. Enjoying my life, wasting my time, eating all the so called "delicious food" , while in his life at my age, he was trying to get a penny for him to survive.

I am so ashamed, that i keep on punching the wall. And without noticing, my fists starts to bleed. It doesn't matter to me, my heart bleeds too, that's what i felt right now.
I failed my subjects for shit. I didn't even try, i didn't even want to try.

He's my light in the darkness. He's a drop of my water in my thirst. I promised my self, i'll be awakened. I'll be the awakened beast, like a lone wolf, i'll conquer this world with my howling.
like the eagle, i will soar the vast sky
And finally i'll be the lion. no matter how fierce i am to my prey, i will keep on loving my family.

Finally He said at the ending. "Never Give Up, Do what other can't do, Your determination is the key for your success".

And now i declare, that the beasts has shown his fangs
his sharp talons
and his fierce roar

-No matter how good you are, You'll be lost forever, If you don't have something to believe in-

-Raffi-

Apa itu Cinta??

Ada yang bilang, Cinta itu kebersamaan..
Ada yang bilang, Cinta itu kesetiaan..
Ada yang bilang, Cinta itu ketulusan..

Tapi buatku cinta itu adalah Kau..

Karena kau, aku temukan duniaku.. karena kau kutemukan dimana hatiku kan berlabuh..

Jangan berhenti mencintaiku , Jangan pernah lelah menyayangiku..
Hingga bumi tak bermentari..

Cinta apa itu??..

Itu adalah pertanyaan terkonyol yang sering aku dengar.. yang sering aku dapat..

Sekarang aku akan bertanya pada kalian,
Mengapa bumi itu bulat?
Mengapa air mengalir?
Mengapa bintang bercahaya?
Dan mengapa hidup itu sulit?

Takkan ada alasan yang tepat untuk menjelaskan pertanyaan diatas kan?
kenapa?

Cinta Tak Butuh Alasan
Cukup Rasakan dan Nikmati
Jika Kalian Mencari Alasan Akan Cinta
Bisakah Kalian Menikmatinya?

Kutemukan Bintangku

Kalian tau.. bintang bukan diukur dari seberapa jauh jarak mereka..
tapi mereka diukur dari seberapa jauh cahaya mereka tuk mampu mencapai bumi..
itu adalah asumsi yang diambil dari segi cinta..

Bintang diukur terangnya berdasarkan M , satuan Magnitude..
M1 sampai M6 .. M1 , yang paling terang karena jaraknya yang paling dekat dengan tata surya..
dan M6 , yang teredup karna jaraknya yang sangat jauh..

Dan telah kutemukan bintangku..

Memang sekilas, dia hanya meredup dari jauh.. ,
Dia lucu, dia aneh.. kadang ngga jelas..
Suka banget bikin aku kesel, dan pastinya cerewet kalo udah waktunya :)

Dia memang hanya wanita biasa, manis.. ga terlalu modis menurutku..
karena sejak awal aku memang menyukai wanita bukan karena fisik.. tapi karena kepribadian

Dialah bintang Magnitude 6 ku..
Jauh , redup. namun cahaya nya selalu menyinariku..
Tahukah kalian.. Dibanding dengan Magnitude yang lain.. Bintang Magnitude 6 lah yang paling terang..

Jauhh.. namun yang paling terang.. Ibarat nya dia adalah mutiara indah , ditengah luas samudra..
Samudra yang luas..

Dia pernah berkata padaku : bintang akan selalu terlihat sama , meskipun kamu dan aku berada di tempat yang berbeda. Akan selalu terlihat cantik dan terus menyinari langit yang sama.

Sekilas itu tidak berarti apa apa,
Namun bagiku.. itu adalah sepenggal kalimat yang bisa meluluhkan hatiku..

Sekilas kau terlihat Redup..
Namun kau Hiasi Malamku..
Kau membuatku merasa cukup..
Hingga aku tak mampu untuk berpaling darimu..

Kau adalah tawa dan candaku..
Yang selalu menghiasi hidupku..
Kau adalah Bintangku..
Yang selalu terangi malam sepiku..

Andai sejak dulu kutemukan dirimu..
Pasti takkan ada hati yang terluka..
Karena Kau Aku merasa Dicinta..
Oh Sayang,, Jangan Pernah Pergi Dariku

Kapan

Kapan aku punya pacar yah???...

Pertanyaan simpel yang bodoh...

Tapi selalu ku pertanyakan...

Nih Post cuman buat Update doank.. hihi..
Ciao Guyss

Oh shit!
OEDIPUS COMPLEX
OWNING ME!!!!

One thing that i'm sure of
A word that start with
L
and ended with
E
is happening

get over with it soon anyway..
temporary thing ends in a temporary way..
if you can answer my question..
show me what you've got with commenting this thing..

My question is

What will you do, if you're in love with more than one person???

answer it.. And you'll get what i'm really talking about

Just A Short Notice

I'm Just A Kind of Person Whom Lived Up To My Own Expectations
Living With a Path That Will Lead Me To Light
Overcoming Each and Every Problems That Comes
Showing My Own Expression In My Own Way

That is why , i don't really like to follow other person's blog
adding other person's facebook unless i knew them
approving a person just like that without even knowing them first

I'm simple and yet complicated

Alright, that's all.. Just a short updates to "Remind" you guys
about the current situation..
do not blame me for not approving your friend request
blog follow thingy
twitters (i don't even have one)

=====Brought To You By=====
RaFFi
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gotta live my life to the fullest
gotta climb the highest mountain on my own strength
gotta break those waves that hurts others
Lastly protect those whom are dearest to me